I caught Laura at my bathroom door this morning singing, “I stand at the door and knock, I stand at the door and knock, knock, knock” as she knocked on my door.
The song is from a Scripture memory CD we have, and the passage is, “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me” Revelation 3:20.
The verse before says, “Those whom I love, I reprove and discipline, so be zealous and repent” Revelation 3:19. The Lord has been honing in on areas of my life that call for repentance. Funny, I was praying the other day for repentance within the body of Christ worldwide. I kind of included myself in that, but I wasn’t expecting for God to point out several areas of my life that need purified. My initial response was pride and anger, but now I am thankful that God loves me enough to sanctify me and make me more like Him. And what a blessing to discover even sweeter fellowship with the Lord when I finally repent.
A thought I have been reading here and there is that God is most glorified when we are the weakest. He wants me to rely on Him instead of myself. Weakness and physical problems are a constant companion, so I guess I must really need reminded of this.
A friend recently told me that I am doing a great job with my children, and that they are so well-behaved. But then she said, “But let me ask you, do you ever get stressed out?” I answered with a strong, “Yes!” It is never my intention to look like I have it all together. I want you to know right now that I DO NOT! I am a weak sinner who has been saved by grace.
I could tell you countless stories about my failures and many stories about my children. I am the one who a couple of years ago asked some older women for help with one of my children. One of them replied, “I will pray for you, but I do not know what to tell you–none of my children were EVER like THAT.” This is what I constantly heard from older women. How discouraging! Well, why is my son so different? I wanted to know.
Any progress we have made, any good attitudes and behavior in my children, any sanctification accomplished, ANY good in our lives is a result of God’s grace and the wisdom He has supplied as we’ve begged Him for it on our knees almost every day (we ought to ask daily). We didn’t get where we are easily, nor have we arrived at our final destination. That is why, just this week, God has called me to repentance.