Sweet Like Honey

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Daily Blessings

So, I haven’t been writing much lately. . .actually, I’ve not been doing much lately. . .I am two months pregnant and have merely been surviving day to day because of the fatigue and nausea. There’s also been the emotional aspect of wondering if this pregnancy will go full term. I find myself surrendering to God’s will a lot. I also catch myself telling God that if this pregnancy doesn’t go well then I am done–I can’t keep doing this; but what does that mean for someone like me who doesn’t want to do anything permanent like surgery and who is against abortifacient forms of birth control? I’ve had 12 miscarriages, and I know some people think I am crazy, “Why doesn’t she give up?”–but there really are some tough questions involved. It is not a light thing to play God over your life. I just trust myself to the mercy of God and know He is storing up for me a greater weight of glory. He is sovereign and He is good. I am thankful for the children I have, and am not idolizing having a baby. I would like more children, but my life doesn’t revolve around that. I haven’t even been trying to get pregnant, but God seems to have other plans and so I trust the babies I’ve lost are with Him and that my losses are not a waste. I am weary of feeling like a broken woman though. I do beg Him to heal me.

Laura was making plans for the babies (she wants twins) today, and how she will help them learn to swim. It was so sweet. She really wants another baby in the family. Everyone does. Laura is almost four, and is definitely the mother hen of the family. She loves to take care of everyone and wants to tend to a little one so badly. When she was sharing her thoughts with me I became very choked up, “Oh, Lord, please don’t let her be disappointed!” I gave her a hug and told her how sweet she is.

We’ve finished up our school year (we go year round with short breaks) using My Father’s World Adventures and are taking the week off before we go into MFW Exploring Countries and Cultures. The boys wanted to start this week because they love MFW and can’t wait to get into all the new books. We got a head start on the geography last night when Christopher pulled our laminated US/World map from Adventures down and started asking us “What is the capitol of _________?” We spent over an hour passing the map around as we all took turns asking and answering similar questions–giggles and smiles thrown in for good measure. This was after a good Sunday afternoon nap, a thunderstorm that knocked our power out for a while and a dinner we threw together from things that didn’t need cooked, a family read-aloud of the Wind in the Willows, a pleasant walk and then a good visit with a neighbor. By the time we fed everyone again and put them all to bed it was after 11pm. But we were having such a fun time just being a family we didn’t notice how late it was.

This morning I was able to get out of bed early enough to have a good quiet time with the Lord. I’ve been dragging so much lately that this hasn’t happened like I would want it to, so I was really excited about this. The rest of the day was full of little blessings.

I was able to conquer the mess in my kitchen (had a bit more energy).

A friend came by to bring some books she’d borrowed and we ended up going to Staples together so we could talk for a bit and get something done too (she has her own business and is so busy right now). When we got to the store we met my friend’s mom, who “just happened” to be there at the same time, so we got to talk with her too. The children were so excited about going to Staples for the first time that they screamed with delight when I told them we were going–they were as excited as if I was taking them to the zoo or something. It was pretty funny. They’ve been stuck at home a lot lately though, due to sickness we’ve been dealing with. When I was checking out, the cashier said, “I just want you to know that you are an encouragement. My wife and I want to try for four kids too.” I was so surprised, and grateful that we could encourage this young man that children are the blessing he thought they would be. I hadn’t started the day out planning to go to Staples, but it became pretty evident that God had directed our going. I love how He is in every detail of our lives.

Later, another friend who orders for our organic produce co-op delivered the produce right to my kitchen and carried it all for me. That was nice, since I can’t lift too much right now.

I got a lot done, and then had time for a good nap which gave me energy to have dinner ready on time! LOL. That is a struggle when I am not pregnant, but right now it is really hard. It really is the simple things! I just felt the Lord upholding me all day. Dinner and family worship time were wonderful and we all talked about our favorite part of the day. Rob said his favorite part of the day was coming home–I am so glad. That is my favorite part of each day too. 11 years of marriage has gone by so fast, and I love my husband more with each passing day. He is a blessing!

How have you seen God’s hand in your life today?



Desire for Children during Infertility and Miscarriage

The Lord has given us 4 children and we have had 12 miscarriages since our fourth was born. The Lord has used the children, including the ones lost (but I believe they are with Him) in my life in amazing ways, and I would not trade any of them or the circumstances for anything.  I would love to have more children.  They are a gift, a blessing, a joy!  A lot of work, yes, but it is worth it!

I have gone the natural route of trying to find out why I am having recurrent miscarriages, and I think I have an idea; but even though I am doing everything I can do, within reason, to be healthy, I continue to miscarry.   A healthy diet and lifestyle can help, but ultimately God is in control.  The Lord has humbled me through this, and shown me that, though it is important to be a good steward of my body, and I should love my potential children by taking care of myself, I do not control by these efforts my ability to carry children to term.

God is not an idealist. He doesn’t have an ideal number of children, or ideal situations, lined up for us. He has the exact number of children and the exact circumstances prepared for us so that we will grow in His love and grace and we will glorify Him. Ideal situations do not tend to produce people who glorify the Lord or love the Lord fervently or recognize how much they NEED Him. The wilderness times give us opportunities to discover how wonderful our Savior is. We most glorify the Lord when we passionately love Him.  And this draws others to Him as well.

When I was newly pregnant with my fourth child, a complete stranger walked up to our family in the store, and said, “You have boys and a girl; there aren’t any other kinds so you don’t need any more.”   I was inwardly grieved by what he said.  Having children is not about EXPERIENCING a boy and a girl and putting a notch in our belts and fulfilling some selfish dream; it is not about “putting in our time” as a parent and then moving on to better things. As believers, we should receive children as a blessing and it is right to desire children, while not making them an idol–but more than anything we have children to glorify God.

I think that if we desire children as a blessing from the Lord, and the Lord withholds children even though we pray for children, we can trust that He has a purpose that will glorify Him more than us having children or more children at that time. This is different than being selfish and not wanting children because we have our lives to lead and children just get in the way.

We can desire the blessing while wanting God to be glorified MORE than we want to be blessed and we can be content with whatever the Lord wants to do through our either having children or not having children. The Bible calls women to be mothers, and so we ought to pursue that. But we need to pursue the Lord more. If we are going after Him with all our hearts, we will find Him in every circumstance, and we will be able to receive children or no children as a gift from Him. Either way, we are blessed.


Times of Pruning

God has been doing much pruning in my life lately, which has been painful but good.  He is such a gentle gardener.  He has given me, through some friends, these two words that describe it so well:

Hymns of John Newton

I asked the Lord that I might grow
In faith, and love, and every grace;
Might more of His salvation know,
And seek, more earnestly, His face.

’Twas He who taught me thus to pray,
And He, I trust, has answered prayer!
But it has been in such a way,
As almost drove me to despair.

I hoped that in some favored hour,
At once He’d answer my request;
And by His love’s constraining pow’r,
Subdue my sins, and give me rest.

Instead of this, He made me feel
The hidden evils of my heart;
And let the angry pow’rs of hell
Assault my soul in every part.

Yea more, with His own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe;
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Blasted my gourds, and laid me low.

Lord, why is this, I trembling cried,
Wilt thou pursue thy worm to death?
“’Tis in this way, the Lord replied,
I answer prayer for grace and faith.

These inward trials I employ,
From self, and pride, to set thee free;
And break thy schemes of earthly joy,
That thou may’st find thy all in Me.”

and this from an anonymous author:

“Perhaps you have been asking the Lord for a long time that he will be pleased to use you in such a way as to impart impressions of Himself to others. That prayer is not exactly for the gift of preaching or teaching. It is rather that you might be able in your touch with others, to impart god, the presence of god, the sense of god. You cannot produce such impressions of god upon others without the breaking of everything, even your most precious possessions, at the feel of the Lord Jesus. Once that is reached, God will begin to use you to create a hunger in others. People will scent Christ in you. The least saint in the Body will detect that. He will sense that here is one who has gone with the Lord, one who has suffered, one who has not moved freely, independently, but who has known what it is to let go everything to Him. That kind of life creates impressions, and impressions create hunger, and hunger provokes men to go on seeking until they are brought by divine revelation into fullness of life in Christ. … god sets us here to create in others a hunger for Himself. That is, after all, what prepares the soil for the preaching.”

God has been loosening my grip on things other than him (through the miscarriages, my health issues, Rob being gone so much working on the house, changing churches): letting go of children, husband, ideal situations, my own imagined wisdom and strength–He really has been bringing me to the end of myself and to a complete dependance on Him–showing me my desperate need for Him each moment of the day.  I know this is not a finished work, but I am thankful for His work of grace in my life. 

Psalm 73:23-26 has become so real to me:

23Nevertheless, I am continually with you;
you hold my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will receive me to glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength [2] of my heart and my portion forever.

This past Saturday we had a last minute wedding to attend for a couple in our church.  It was actually a remarriage/reconciliation, so it was extra special.  We had it at the future church building which is still being remodeled, so there are tools and supplies and construction debris lying everywhere.  The ceremony was very simple–just the reciting of vows and exchange of rings, a prayer and announcement of man and wife and the kiss.  No music, no candles, no reception! The couple was dressed in work clothes because they had been helping with some of the work on the church beforehand!

As we were gathering around for the ceremony my friend Tammy told me to “Go up there and sing a wedding song!”  I told her I didn’t know any wedding songs and I didn’t make any effort to think of one.  Then suddenly the Lord put a song (The Lord Bless You and Keep You, from Nahum, as Michael Card sings it) in my mind and I knew it was from Him–so I silently said I would sing it whenever it
became clear it was the right time.  My heart was pounding so hard during the ceremony.  As soon as it was over I asked our pastor if I could sing a song and he said I could so I started singing–the pounding stopped and the song came out in a very powerful way.  It was obviously of the Lord and not me, because I am a timid person normally.  

The next day at church, the groom shared with me how blessed he had been by the song and shared that what encouraged him the most was that there we were in an unfinished, less than ideal situation for a wedding, and God chose to work.  He mentioned the unfinished state of the building and the resulting “sweet acoustic” that is there because of all the hard surfaces in the room that won’t be there once it is finished.  He applied that to our lives and said that God doesn’t need perfect situations to work in powerful ways, and that often He chooses to use less than ideal/perfect situations and people to do His most powerful work.

I agreed with him at the time, but the more I pondered what he said the more I realized that what he said had been a word from God to me–and I realized God had worked through me, blessed this man, and then spoken to me to tell me what He is doing in my life–causing me to let go of my obsession with the “ideal”, causing me to submit to Him leading me through hard things, causing me to expect Him to work powerfully in the daily trials of life as I cling to Him in prayer and dependence on Him and the work of the Spirit in my life. 

This past week I experienced another miscarriage and I also gave in to the temptation to complain bitterly against Rob for dragging us through this remodel.  I made him cry, and God used that to get my attention.  I knew I needed correction in my thinking so I searched for messages on Sovereign Grace Ministries website and found Carolyn Mahaney’s “What To Do About The Things You Can’t Do Anything About”.  It was great.  Her main point was that all we go through is hand chosen for us by God, using John 21 as her text where Jesus tells Peter that he (Peter) will later die of Crucifixion. 

As I listened, the Lord showed me that I was struggling with whether or not it was really God’s will for us to be going through this remodel because the decision to do so had come directly through my husband and not from God (to my human eyes anyway).  I can’t blame the miscarriages on Rob but I can blame the difficulty of the remodel on him and second guess his “listening to God” skills.  I became so ashamed when I realized that I was being unsubmissive, unloving, untrusting, dishonoring. . .  He reminded me that even if Rob does make a sinful or unwise decision I am still supposed to honor him with a gentle and quiet spirit and trust God.  He made it clear that Rob is NOT sinning or hearing from Him incorrectly and that He has a purpose for this hard, less than ideal situation.  I have repented to God and to Rob, and I am excited for what God has and will do through this time.  

What I am being shown repeatedly is that we are weak and empty, lack wisdom, don’t know how to communicate, don’t know what to do. . .in ourselves. The answer is to cling to the Lord and ask Him to do the work we try so hard to do but fail at miserably. We can’t do anything, don’t have anything to offer, unless we abide in Jesus. So in all of my wrestling I am coming face to face with my frailty. The only place to go is the Lord–and He doesn’t despise me for my weakness; He knows I am but dust; He remembers my frame. He wants me to bring all my emptiness to Him. He wants to prove Himself faithful and strong on my behalf.
I am learning. . .To be still and know that He is God is what we need. I am unfit, unworthy, unwise, unknowing.  He is everything.  As we rest in Him He will fill us with what is needed. He will pour out through us. He will do the work and weave the glorious tapestry of grace that will amaze us when we see it. We serve such a wonderful God.  All we need is Him–not perfect situations or perfection in ourselves.


Asthma and Dehydration

The Two Sides of the Coin

According to the mainstream medical information I read, asthma is a chronic disease which causes the inflammation of the inside walls of a person’s airways.  The two types are allergic and non-allergic asthma.  Allergic asthma is affected by one’s immune system, while non-allergic asthma has to do with environmental irritants.  It is not clear why some people suffer from asthma and others do not, but it is believed that genetics play a role.

Everyone’s breathing can be affected by irritants, allergies and strong emotions. However, the airways of a person with asthma overreact to these triggers.  Signs that a person may have asthma include wheezing or whistling coming from the chest, coughing, chest tightness and trouble breathing.

Someone with mild asthma may have attacks once or twice a month, or even less, while a person with severe asthma could suffer from attacks every day.  During an attack the muscles around the airways constrict, making the opening in the airways smaller.  The airways also become inflamed and mucus increases so that air cannot flow freely, which makes it difficult to breathe.  Death can occur during a severe attack if not enough oxygen reaches vital organs.

There are no proven causes of asthma, although genetics, early exposure to tobacco smoke, infections, and some allergens may increase the chances of developing asthma.  Asthma can develop at any age, but it is usually diagnosed by age 5 in children.  Boys are more likely to develop asthma than girls.  Some children do outgrow their asthma, and by the teen years the ratio of boys to girls who have asthma evens out.  African Americans and people living in cities are more likely to have asthma than Caucasians and people living in suburbs and rural areas.

The standard treatments include quick-relief medicines such as albuterol inhalers which prevent attacks from getting worse by opening the bronchioles and long term medicines such as steroids which reduce airway swelling.  Mainstream medicine offers no cure, but rather dependence on doctors and medicine for the rest of one’s life.  This is the way the medical community, trained by the pharmaceutical companies, treats their patients: by masking the symptoms while leaving them sick so that they will always need medicine for relief.

However, Dr. F. Batmanghelidj, author of  ABC of Asthma, Allergies and Lupus, says that asthma, allergies and other health problems are directly related to chronic dehydration.  He argues that we need at minimum 8-10 cups of water a day, plus ½ tsp of unrefined sea salt and a healthy diet of fruits, vegetables, healthy grains, meats and fats for optimal hydration and health.  And he warns that sodas, caffeine and alcohol all dehydrate the body. He observed many people cured of their asthma by cutting out sodas, juices, alcohol and caffeine, and regulating their water and salt intake. 

The schedule he recommends is to drink 2-3 cups when you wake up and 2 cups ½ hour before each meal, 1-2 cups 2 ½ hours after each meal, before, during and after exercise, 2 cups before bedtime and any other time you need it.  It is also okay to sip water with meals.  It is a myth that water dilutes digestive enzymes-actually water activates them.  The reason he says to drink water ½ hour before meals is because this is how long it takes for that water to be available for all the various digestive processes.  Eating food without water causes water to be pulled from other parts of the body, and this leads to many problems.

He had a passion for eliminating childhood asthma and presented his findings to the NIH and asthma support groups.  But his ideas were rejected because there is no money in water.

According to Dr. Batmanghelidj, water is needed for every function of the body.  Our bodies are 75% water and our brain is 85% water.  Because of the water used in breathing, digestion, enzyme and hormone production, immune function, toxin removal and so on, we need to replace that water frequently throughout the day or our health will suffer. 

When we get dehydrated histamine production increases because histamine is the water regulator of the body.  Histamines are also important for immune function, but during dehydration they are mostly used to look for water.  If dehydration becomes chronic, the immune system will suffer; allergies, both inhalant and food allergies, will result because histamine is important for the proper balance of T cells, antibodies and so on.

Elevated histamine in the lungs causes the spasm of the bronchioles. This conserves moisture that would normally be lost during breathing.  The mucus that clogs up the airways is the body’s attempt to keep the airways from completely drying out.  Inflammation in the airways is the result of the body bringing more “micro-circulation” to the lungs as a result of dehydration.  The best treatment for an asthma attack is to drink 2-3 cups of water and put a pinch of sea salt on the tongue.  This provides the body with the water it needs and the salt sends a signal to the brain to relax the bronchioles by letting it know relief is coming. 

In the case of chemically induced asthma, the lungs shut down to prevent the toxins from getting in to damage the brain and other parts of the body.  This lowers the oxygen level in the brain which leads to numerous other symptoms in the body as well.  A well hydrated body can produce antibodies against allergens to prevent a reaction, but there are not many antibodies available to fight chemicals, so the body has to resort to closing off the lungs.  The more one is exposed to the chemical the stronger the reaction will be.  It can take a few years of avoiding the chemical for the body to “forget” its reaction to that chemical and so not react so forcefully.

There are many other asthma triggers, but all of them can be shown to cause the dehydration which leads to asthma: stress and strong emotions, exercise, hot or cold air blowing out of air conditioning vents, etc.

Children are more prone to have asthma because of their constant growth, which doesn’t allow them to have a reserve of water in their bodies.  It is vitally important that they eat a healthy diet and drink enough water to maintain healthy growth and brain function, and prevent “diseases” such as asthma.  The modern American diet is high in refined wheat and sugar, sodas, unhealthy fats, minimal amounts of fruits and vegetables which are loaded with pesticides, and so on.  These put unnecessary stress on the body and cause dehydration. 

Common problem foods for children with asthma, ADHD, autism and allergies are dairy and gluten.  Both are very hard to digest and require a lot of water to break down.  If there is not enough water in the digestive tract when food is taken in, water will be pulled from other parts of the body and localized dehydration will result.  This could lead to asthma, behavior problems, learning problems and allergies.  Water is needed for the production of digestive enzymes.  If not enough water is available, problems such as leaky gut and yeast overgrowth might be experienced.  I believe Dr. Batmanghelidj’s conclusions have significant potential to help our children.

Allergy symptoms (of any kind, including eczema and hay fever) are a sign that we need to drink more water.  Antihistamines, which most medicines are either directly or indirectly, actually are counterproductive for the body because they further dehydrate the body and shut off the body’s search for water.  Pain, inflammation and digestive problems are also typically signs of dehydration.  Dehydration is a common cause of migraines, for example.


Personal Experience

Another issue with chemicals such as fluorine, chlorine and bromine, which are everywhere in our environment, is that they displace iodine in the body.  Iodine is needed for hydration because it enables the thyroid to make thyroxin, which stimulates cells to make the pump proteins that regulate the mineral balances inside and outside cells. 

During the time I was researching for this paper, I developed inflammation in my lungs (shown on a chest x-ray), thyroid goiter and chemically induced asthma from exposure to fluoride and chorine from our water distiller.  I believe I would have died if I had not used the water and salt treatment to open up my airways-it worked very quickly on the several occasions I tried it–and I am so thankful that I was already aware of the treatment because of my research.  Once I realized why I had developed these problems we moved our distiller out of our house and I started taking kelp to flush the chemicals out of my body (iodine also displaces fluorine, chlorine, and bromine so it is an effective treatment for chemical exposure).  As soon as I took the first dose of kelp my thyroid and lung swelling went down significantly and improved steadily over the following week. 

At first, taking the kelp or eating anything with iodine such as eggs or dairy can cause unpleasant symptoms as the chemicals are forced into the blood stream and eventually out through the digestive and elimination systems.  Take some sea salt and a few glasses of water to alleviate this.  I also recommend taking milk thistle to protect the liver and relieve the gallbladder pain which is a symptom of the chemicals being eliminated.  You will know the iodine has gotten rid of the chemicals when you no longer feel bad when taking it. 

Avoiding chemicals is a good policy but hard to do.  Taking a small amount of kelp daily could help those with asthma, MCS, fibromyalgia, thyroid problems and chronic fatigue to fight the effects of the chemicals in their environment which cause their dehydration and resulting health problems. 

I developed the goiter again even though I was taking my synthroid faithfully.  I have thought all along that fluoride poisoning caused my thyroid disease and now I am hopeful that the iodine will heal my thyroid and I will be able to have a successful pregnancy again.

My oldest son has ADHD and is prone to asthma.  Whenever he gets the tell-tale cough he drinks a glass of water and takes a pinch of salt.  His breathing becomes easy within minutes.

My youngest has had chronic eczema since she was born, I think because of chronic dehydration caused by my health problems during pregnancy and when nursing.  She was also failure to thrive until I took her off gluten-I think that is because gluten is hard to break down and she was dehydrated so couldn’t do it effectively.  We have started making her drink a glass of water before all her meals and her eczema is healing.  She’s even been able to eat some eggs, which have always made her skin break out.

I have experienced severe allergies to pollen in the recent past and since learning that water is what my body needs to get rid of my allergies I have not been bothered by ragweed or freshly cut grass!  Any time I feel like I need to sneeze I drink a glass of water and the sensation goes away.  Itchy eyes are a thing of the past.

For more information

Please read the books by Dr. F. Batmanghelidj which are very detailed and fascinating.  The three I have read are:

 Your Body’s Many Cries for Water

Water: for Health, for Healing, for Life

ABC of Asthma, Allergies and Lupus






Dehydration, minerals, fluoride and water

I’ve been researching the body’s need for water and recently recommended www.watercure.com.  Dr. B says we should drink a minimum of 2 quarts of water a day and that we should add 1/4 tsp of unrefined sea salt to our diet for each quart of water we drink.  He says it is impossible to be hydrated without the sodium, which is true–we have to have the proper balance of Sodium and Potassium in order for our cells to become hydrated.

The average person who doesn’t eat a lot of whole grains probably can get away with 2 quarts (8-10 cups) of water, but I tend to need about 4 quarts because I only eat whole grains, I live in Florida and I exercise.  Dr. B also says we should drink a glass of water before we start eating in order for our bodies to properly digest the food. 

According to Dr. B, chronic dehydration can cause asthma, arthritis, migraines, hypertension, allergies, and even autoimmune disorders.  Check out his website and books for more info on this (above).  It is interesting that he recommends the use of salt when the mainstream medical community says to cut back on salt.  They say salt causes hypertension.  Actually dehydration causes hypertension. 

The way it works is that most of us eat a highly refined and processed diet which lacks potassium and is high in added sodium.  In order for our cells to be hydrated we must have a balance of 2 (or more) parts potassium-1 part sodium.  Potassium works on the inside of cells while sodium works on the outside.  If you have too much Sodium and lack Potassium you will not be properly hydrated even if you drink a lot of water.  You will retain water, your blood pressure will go up, you will get a headache, you could cause chronic diseases like hypertension, etc.  (The rangers at Mt. Zion National Park recommend drinking orange juice and eating something salty like organic tortilla chips with sea salt when outside hiking and sweating.  This gives you more Potassium than Sodium and helps replace lost electrolytes.  Whenever Rob is outside working and has a headache he drinks a lot of water but sometimes he can’t get rid of the dehydration headache.  I then give him some sea salt for his water plus orange juice and the headache goes away within minutes.  But if we skip the juice the headache doesn’t go away.)  Doctors recommended reduced salt intake because the Sodium/Potassium balance is lost when we eat the modern processed diet–we lack Potassium and this leads to hypertension.  Some pharmaceutical drugs (and see here) also lead to a loss of potassium.  Potassium helps regulate blood pressure and heart muscle action. 

What we all need is to eat a whole foods diet.  Natural fruits, vegetables, grains, fish, chicken and other meats all contain a lot of potassium, but not so much sodium (less than 1/2 the amount of potassium usually).  We should drink enough water to stay hydrated–this will vary depending on how much fiber you eat, the type of work or exercise you do, etc.  Your goal is very pale urine.  Add about 1/4 tsp sea salt per quart of water (you don’t have to drink it, you could add it to your food throughout the day or just put it on your tongue).   You have to add salt because natural foods do not contain enough to replace lost electrolytes.  If you are putting a lot in your cooking you may not need extra.  If you start feeling bloated, swollen or get a headache you need to add more potassium and water and cut back on the salt.  Staying hydrated keeps your cells healthy and able to receive nutrients, carries nutrients to all parts of your body and keeps your body funtioning well.  Your efforts at eating nutrient dense foods will pay off.  Many of our society’s chronic diseases are caused by dehydration, but it is not enough just to drink more water.  We need this whole picture of water, minerals and vitamins.  Even exercise plays a role in staying hydrated.

There is of course more that goes on in our bodies when we do or don’t get enough water, but you get the idea.  Drinking clean water and eating a whole foods diet allows us to get all of the nutrients we need in the proper balance.  It is amazing how interdependent they all are. 

Those of us who try to be healthy usually drink a ton of water and eat fresh produce regularly.  Unfortunately, our water supply and conventional produce and even milk and meats have been poisoned with Fluoride.  Many medicines also contain high amounts of Fluoride.  Fluoride causes an impressive amount of damage to our bodies–I am living proof of that! Read my other Fluoride poisoning posts for more info and helpful links.  Rob is reading a book called “The Fluoride Deception” by Christopher Bryson and he says it is very well-written and easy to understand.  The reason I bring this up here is that one of the effects of fluoride is chronic dehydration.  Many of my reactions to fluoride were the same as the feeling you get when you are severely dehydrated–I would drink water to feel better and end up feeling worse than before I drank the water.  I can only drink distilled water  because other filtration systems cannot remove Fluoride.  I add minerals back to my water using sea salt–I also use it in my cooking, so I am still experimenting with how much extra salt I really need.  Too much depletes the potassium in your body so you have to be careful not to over do the salt. 

My theory is that fluoride caused chronic dehydration in my body which led to the autoimmune problems I am now having. . .I am still researching it, but I have hope that if I can continue to detox the fluoride my health problems will be reversed. 

I detox slowly by eating and drinking chemical free food, avoiding foods that naturally have fluoride, drinking lots of water, taking milk thistle, exercising. . .this is much healthier than expensive colon cleansing kits (what your colon needs is water), quacky footbaths, extended fasts, etc.  Most of those things are designed to make someone a lot of money, and often at the expense of people’s health or at least their checkbook. 

Please don’t fall for false claims.  Do the research before trying something.  One thing I came across recently was a salt-water detox.  This has you drink 1/2 teaspoon of sea salt disolved in 1 quart of water every morning for a 3-10 days.  This is supposed to clean you out quickly, and a sign of toxins coming out is headache, fatigue, and worse.  This is NOT healthy!  That is a lot of salt with not much water and unless you drink a ton of water you will become severely dehydrated.  The headache will be a sign of an imbalance in your body, not of toxins coming out.  The claim is that you will have more energy and feel great when you are done–of course, getting rehydrated would feel wonderful after that torture!  Salt + water does have a gentle detoxing affect, but it all needs to be kept in balance or you will get sick or even die.

I had to give up sea salt for a while when I was still taking in fluoride.  I now realize that it was because the fluoride deydrated me so much that when I ate salt it added to the dehydration problem, because I was not getting the pure water my body needed to stay hydrated.  A few months after I started avoiding Fluoride I was able to add sea salt with no problems.  Before that I used kosher salt and that didn’t bother me.  I am not sure if it was because of the iodine in the sea salt or not. . .

I thought I might have rheumatoid arthritis, diabetes, and other problems when I was still eating/drinking fluoride was because I not only had the usual dehydration symtoms of headache, bloating, fast heart beat and high blood pressure, but I also had intense pain in my joints, chronic fatigue and on and on.  My gallbladder was extremely painful–but I still have it as I refuse to give up internal organs if I can help it (milk thistle was my friend during flare-ups).  All of those things are caused by severe dehydration but I didn’t know it at the time.  I have always been a water advocate, but the fluoride interfered with my efforts to be healthy.  It was a very confusing time and I am thankful that God has been giving me answers.  I feel for others going through this and I know there are many, because I get lots of people on my blog everyday looking for fluoride info.


I’d rather feel pain. . .

I began miscarrying last night for the eighth time.  The contractions started in earnest before I went to sleep and I woke in the early hours with intense pain and bleeding. 

This morning I received an e-mail from a friend saying she’d been woken up by a dream about me while it was still dark and prayed for me.  I was up shortly before dawn trying to make the pain go away enough so I could sleep.  Her note reminded me that God was with me then, is with me now, loves me, is holding me in His hand. . .thank You, Lord!

I’ve been anticipating this miscarriage for a few weeks with alternating fear and faith, expecting the inevitable and yet excited that this time it might be different.  A few friends have been praying for me with a lot more faith than I could.  I have felt like the paralytic man who was healed by the faith of his friends who lowered him down to Jesus through the roof.  My heart has been paralyzed because I’ve been trying to protect myself from the pain of yet another baby lost.

It hit me hard the other day when I realized that pregnancy signs have become signs of miscarriage in my mind–I don’t think of “pregnancy” in the normal way anymore.  There are also specific signs of miscarriage I’ve become pretty sensitive to.  I left the breakfast table the other morning to go cry, because I was pretty sure by then that I was going to miscarry and I couldn’t hold back the emotions.  When I came back to the table Rob and the children asked why I was crying.  When I told them, the children asked how I knew that already.  Rob told them, “Mommy knows.”

A few nights ago I willed myself to open my heart enough to tell God that I did want this baby and that I wanted Him to preserve the pregnancy.  I told Him that I didn’t want to wall off my heart, but instead I wanted to trust Him and ask in faith for this real and good desire, and that I would trust and praise Him no matter what the outcome.

I’ve decided I’d rather have faith and risk being hurt than have a heart of stone.  I’d rather feel pain than feel nothing.  I’d rather be forced to cling to God and experience His comfort than retreat within myself in prideful self-protection.  I’d rather be alive than dead.

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I surrender

The other night I was grieving over the seven miscarriages and some other hard stuff–I stretched out on my back with my arms out wide in surrender and wept with the verse “though He slay me, yet will I praise Him” going through my mind.  I made it my prayer, over and over, and told God how hard all this was and that I couldn’t take it anymore, but God I will obey You, I will praise You, I will trust You, Your will be done. I was able to receive God’s comfort and strength to persevere, because He didn’t take the problem away, but wants me to keep trusting. But He is my everything, He is all I need, He is the prize, the blessing, the greatest treasure. I do not deserve my salvation and yet He chooses to lavish so many other blessings on me. But my heart aches anyway and He understands that.